Oh well.. Tuesday, Dec 26 2006 

Reflections and Work Sux wee 8:05 pm

1948hrs

Finally, a chance for a breather.

I’d meant to write an entry or two after my return from Bangkok, but I guess I’ve been too busy catching up with myself, my life, my loved ones.

I have been in a great mood the past week; yet the week is only suffice for catching up on some rest and for the weariness to hide in a corner – for a little while.
Just 11 hours in this office today, and I’m starting to feel the sickeningness creeping back.

Would I ever get a chance to sit down and think?

Sometimes it feels like I am drifting away and apart from myself.
As with some feelings, some things, some people.. once they drift apart from you, they never seem to come back.
Regardless of how close to them you once were.. once you are out of that door, the door is closed.
And remains so.

Perhaps it’s time for me to stop banging on that door.

 

For the 2nd time this year.. Saturday, Dec 16 2006 

Reflections wee 4:12 pm

I’m off the Bangkok in the next few hours!

Have been running on super turbo engine for the past two weeks.. and finally, it’s time for the break.

Worked till 10:30pm last night, and went on to Coffee Club for “dinner” with the gals (some call them aunties, haha) from office. It was 3:30am by the time I got back and showered and crashed.

Miraculously, or perhaps unsurprisingly, I was up by 8:30am this morning.
Caught the re-run of Project Superstar 2. Really liked the 80s/90s theme this time round.. Though it kinda hints that I am, ahem, of a certain age.
Did some packing, ran downstairs to get some daily necessities, did more packing, went through the Recruit, tried to catch up on some sleep but failed..
And thus, here I am.

Would be spending 3 days 3 nights in BKK with SH, one of my closest friend from DHS.. and then another 3 days of the ‘love myself campaign’ back in Singapore, where hopefully there’ll not be any phonecalls or work-related horrors.

I have reached a stage where it’s time for me to sit down and reflect on the past year.. and to think about the next steps to come. I understand the law of gravity, that things have to hit rock bottom before they finally bounce back.. but what Newton didn’t find out was, what if there is a strong pull of gravity, you’re falling, but there is no bottom?
This is something for everyone to think about, and for me to find out.

The feeling was bad enough for me to skip the company’s xmas party; I couldn’t find any joyfulness in me to feel the spirit of celebration.

Well..

My dear friend E even went as far as to draft the letter for me, haha..
And I got my first ‘engagement’ ring from the three of them, E, L and O (remember the LEO club?). All three are my ex-colleagues, probably the best things this company have given to me. E was the first to leave, then O, and then L.
The ring bore our initials W.E.L.O. And all three of them are wearing this same ring now..:)
What would I do without these friends?

Ok, time to shower and get ready to hit the airport!

Would update more when I am back, I promise.

 

Back! Wednesday, Dec 6 2006 

Random musings and Work Sux wee 9:53 am

I’d wanted to give a blow-by-blow account of how the LASIK surgery went, and the aftermath.

But I decided I would not, simply because:
a) i have no time;
b) because i’ve been clearing the 105 emails and working my arse, hopefully not my eyes, off since i came back to work on Mon;
c) i reckon that there’d be friends and trigger-happy surfers who might want to go for the op, and hence i shall be considerate, haha.

In summary, I discovered that:
1. I fidget A LOT when I am nervous (before the op), or require some distraction (after the op);
2. I can still play dai-di with two eyes that require eyedrops every 15 minutes;
3. I am bad at aiming, I mean the eyedrops;
4. I have damn good will power — I can sleep wearing the assigned googles, and find myself in exactly the SAME position when I wake up;
5. Things like courage and guts are inversely proportionate to age – the older you are, the less you have;
6. Women, even those who shriek at the sight of houseflies, mosquitoes and cockroaches, can go through anything just to look good (of course i am not talking about myself);
7. It can be quite liberating to walk around the office makeupless and with a red eye;
8. Most importantly, it’s great to be able to see everything in clear vision the minute you wake up!

In other news, work still pretty much sucks. haha.
Been clocking at least 12hours everyday for the past three days. I’ll sue the company if i go blind because of work.

Can’t wait for the next week to end, and hopefully I can go on the FULL one-week break which I applied for months ago.